God’s Love Never Fails

By Emilie

"Peace I leave with
you, my peace I
give unto you: not
as the world giveth,
give me unto you.
Let not your heart
be troubled, neither
let it be afraid.”
John 14:27

nd they cry out to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. He led them by a straight way to a city where they could settle. Let them give thanks unto the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men.

For He satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things. Some sat in darkness and the deepest gloom; prisoners suffered in iron chains, for they had rebelled against the word of God and despised the council of the most high. So He subjected them to bitter labor; they stumbled, and there was no one to help. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble and he saved them from their distress.

He brought them out of the darkness and the deepest gloom and broke away their chains. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men. For He breaks down gates of bronze and cuts threw bars of iron.” Psalm 107: 6-16

I relate to every part of this verse. I was angry with God; I tried to fight His love for years. Putting up walls and cursing Him in my head every chance I had. I’d be forced to go to church with a friend, and I’d sit there the whole time fighting back tears, fighting God’s overwhelming love, fighting the truth, and fighting God telling me to come to Him.

It saddens me to see how bitter and how hateful I was to God; I’d make fun of Him with my friends all the time. I always knew God was real and I was terrified of the truth so I hid. I tried covering myself up with things like- witchcraft, drugs, drinking, friends, music, art, everything!

I started to get tormented by demons; they’d tell me things. They would brainwash me and convince me I was ugly, failure, reject, God will never accept me, and the list goes on. But THAT’S NOT TRUE! God’s arms are Always OPEN! He’s just waiting for you to notice Him; He's calling you, pulling you near Him. He’s always there to pull you out of your trouble…

“The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He also will hear their cry and save them.” Psalm 145:18-19

I thought that drinking and friends were helping me overcome the depression I was being suffocated by, but it just numbed me for a little while. The buzz never lasted, the fun was only there for a season; and then I started to think about killing myself again, but this time it was when I was with my friends (now suicidal thoughts were always chasing me).

I pretended to be happy, gluing on a smile face, but I was terribly weak, terribly blind. I always thought, "Why aren’t I happy? Why am I alive? I just want to kill myself… I’d be free. I’d be free from these demons.” I started living the thoughts and following them.

“The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit.” Psalm 34:18

I cut myself constantly and tried hanging myself three times. I felt like such a loser; I never felt loved, accepted, or even understood. I’d wake up every night and demons would be tormenting me! I don’t want to get into what the demons did to me because I don’t want to lift up satan; I want to lift up God. But Satan tried to steal my sanity, but God gave it back to me. He gave me everything back; all I had to give in return was my love and life.

I tried to find peace in drugs, drinking, art, music, and friends, but they all let me down. God never failed me. The Bible says "men will fail you, but I will never fail you".

“I will both lie down in peace, and sleep; for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.” Psalm 4:8.

God gave me peace and He is filling my hands every day!

Jesus said, “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give me unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27

satan is a thief; he steals your identity and tries convincing you that you’re someone else, when God made you different. God made you unique and special.

I remember when I became a Christian I was sitting in a room (with my counselor) talking to God. I told Him how sorry I was and asked Him to forgive me. I thought, "Okay, why is God going to forgive me when I did everything terrible and hated Him for so long.” I was scared.

But God said, "You’re forgiven daughter” and I looked at His face (while I was praying, I pictured Him) and His face was sad! I prayed to God to tell me why His facial expression was smothered with grief, and He told me it was because I was sad. It’s amazing how God cares so much for me and you! It’s amazing how God took off my chains and set me free from everything that was killing me.

I never knew how badly I was without God until I started getting healthier and healing. I never realized how I was slowly sliding down into my gutter until I was at the very bottom crying out to God! God healed me. All the wrong things I turned to made me blind, fragile, shattered and broken. God was always there comforting and holding me.

You just have to let your pride fall.

“Make your escape from life with Adoni, you will all stop hurting come to Adoni,” Brian Welch.

Escape through God, give Him your problems. He’s our refuge and strength, our fortress. He hears us when no one else does.

He knows when you’re putting on an act, or sincerely not happy with your life. No matter what you’ve done in the past God will love you, HE WILL ACCEPT YOU, God understands you! He will help you overcome any giant you have in your life. I always thought God was going to strike me down for thinking the way I did, I was in love with darkness, but God’s wrath is only for a minute, but His mercy endures forever.

God is truth; God is our strength!

"Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." Nehemiah 8:10

"But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it." 2 Timothy 4:17.

"Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always." 1 Chronicles 16:11